I don’t mean going ‘crazy’ o. Because the fuel queues, crazy Lagos heat, apparent absence of PHCN and Lagos water corporation can drive you up the wall ….
What I mean is that there’s a point in your life where you start to lose a grip on things that you used to be so good at. Let me explain.
Being the eldest girl in a home of four girls meant that you carried the responsibility of being the second mom. You took charge of meals, cleaning, sometimes laundry and division of responsibility. All of this was to ‘prepare you for your husband’s house’. Funny right?!
Don’t laugh, that actually helped me. Anyways, back to the mortar…
I got so good at scheduling meals, dividing labour, taking care of housework that it almost became second nature to me. Emphasis on the word ‘ALMOST’.
Now I’m in charge of my own home and I feel like I’m floating and I realize that I can’t quite remember how to make groundnut soup. Or I find that I’m not satisfied with the way my Okra soup tastes.
Am I the only one this happens to?
Today my eyebrows can be on fleek and then next week, I’m wondering how to draw my eyebrows right. I can put pen to paper and come up with amazing work and then next month, I’m like ‘What am I doing here?’, ‘What am I supposed to do now?’
Is there something I need to do? I need to hear that this is normal and soon I’ll get a grip on my life because right now……
Does this happen to anyone?